How can one person be such an unthoughtful little whore? She has done it again, anything she can to upstage the things that Shannon and I have.

It is just such a coincidence that the condom broke, AGAIN and the morning after pill didn't work, and hey presto you've got another bun in the oven due just over 12months since the first one.

You try to justify not even telling your own brother about it (at 21 weeks gone) by claiming you used to think something was wrong and you didn't want to talk about it! You stupid fucking whore!!!!!! GROW THE FUCK UP!!

Still not feeling any better but hey, you get that.

Helen and Cameron are doing much better.

Helen ended up back in hospital at King Edward to have another blood patch after she had a spinal fluid leak :o(, which is muchly not good. It all worked this time and she is out again, staying at PMH with Cameron. Chris came back to Bunno last night because they are both better and he needed to spend some time with Patrick and Izabel.

Cameron is greatly improved. He has come off the c-pap breather and is coping really well, so relieved. They think he may be transferred back to Bunbury by Wednesday which would be good so we can see him before we go away. Chris and Helen thinking of flying out to Tom Price on Sunday as long as he is ok.

Thanks for all the warm wishes. Special thanks to Nic, will catch up soon :o)

The RFDS (Royal Flying Doctors Service) flew Cameron through to Princess Margaret Hospital late yesterday afternoon, Chris went with him as PMH won't accept Helen as a patient until she is 3 days post-op. She should be nearly in Perth now, her mum took her up first thing this morning. I couldn't imagine being without my Baby at this stage and she has had to endure it twice. My heart goes out to both of them.

Patrick and Izabel are staying with my parents until we know a little more about what is happening. Mum tried to get some accommodation in Perth but everywhere is heavily booked due to the cricket being on this weekend.

I wish I could do or say something to help, but I just keep wondering why life is so unfair and this had to happen to them twice, it is so much harder the 2nd time around.

Cameron Paul Majewski
Born 16th January 2008
Weight 8 ponds
Length 49cms

Helen is doing well, but the baby was having a few problems breathing. He has fluid and is "grunting" so is in a humidicrib at the moment. I haven't been up to see them yet, will go tomorrow, they needed some privacy as a family first. It is just so sad that two of there babies have had difficulties at birth. My nephew (their first son) Patrick had a pnuemothorax (whole in the lung) when he was born which resulted in a collapsed lung and all other stuff, but he is completely fine now. They thought the new baby might have the same, but is apparently ok, doesn't need the oxygen but they are giving it to him anyway.

I wish them all a speedy recovery and I love all of my nieces and nephews so much :o)

It has already proven to be the busiest January I have ever had.

Emilie is now 7 months old and crawling :o) YaY! I have such clever babies. William is 18months and still not talking too much, so waiting for an appointment at the speech therapists to have his tongue checked, because he has a tongue tie he may have speech difficulties. He may eventually need an operation to cut the membrane which joins the underneath of the tongue to the mouth, Emilie had hers cut before we left hospital because she was also tongue tied.

Helen is booked in to have a c-section this morning, their 3rd baby and my 4th niece/nephew. I am so excited, get to go major baby shopping :oP. Chris and Helen and the kids fly up to Tom Price on the 24th, I won't see them until about May/June, feeling really sad and I am going to miss the kids so much.

We are now caught up to technology and have got broadband so no more stupid Telstra kicking us off all the time grrrrrrrrr.

Going away to Margaret River for the long weekend spending some time with Shannon's family for his Uncle Owen.

We had a really fantastic Christmas this year. Unfortunately Shannon and Emilie were sick Christmas Eve so we couldn't go to Perth to see my family which was a little sad. Mum took William up to Perth though, and everyone thought he was cute.

We spent Christmas day with my rents and then Christmas night up in Collie with Shan's family. So was quite a relaxing time altogether, not too much travelling.

Tomorrow is the big day, I turn 26, Argh!@##$ Getting to be old and responsible, I turned around and suddenly things have changed so incredibly fast. I don't regret my life, but there are so many things I wish had gone a little different in their time. I've gotten a lot more mellow and tend to go with the flow more now which is a very good thing.

Can't wait for next year, I'm getting a new little niece or nephew and the kids will have so much going on. Chris and Helen moving to Tom Price, so mum is paying have my airfare to fly up and see them during the year.

Have to go finish unpacking the rest of the kids Christmas Booty, they got some really cool stuff.

Everytime I am around certain ppl I can feel the levels of frustration and anger, at their stupidity and/or controlling, starting to build to a dangerous level. I don't know how much longer I will be able to tolerate their behaviour before I blow up and tell them all exactly what I think.

I mean come on who can be proud of an achievement that is dooming their child to a life of ridicule before his life has even really begun. You need to get your head out of your arse and realise that the world does not revolve around you, we don't care about your petty greivances, grow up and start acting like the mother you should be. Put your children and their needs first for once in your fucking life.

It is time you learned to give him some credit, he is the only man I know who asks to take his infant son out with him nearly ever weekend and who volunteers to say home with his daughter. He loves his children with all his heart and provides the best care he can, and yet you all believe he still needs to be told what to do and to be criticised for the small things he doesn't think about. You need to all back the fuck up and take a look at how imperfect you all are then and only then will I allow you to even factor into our childs upbringing.

Feeling a like bit unburdened now

Benn ages since I have had a chance to write on here, and really the enthusiasm to do so. I am getting a little bit addicted to Facebook, which Shannon finds quite amusing as he doesn't see the point of it.

The Baptism went well, the kids were good William was a little loud in the church but who can blame him. Emilie looked absolutely gorgeous in her gown, she wore my Dad's christening gown, which I wore for mine, its nice to carry on tradition. Chris and Helen are Emi's godparents, Christopher (Shannon's Bro) is Will's godfather and my cousin Alicia is his godmother.

The kids have got a cold at the moment and I'm just starting to get it. :o(

I just wanted to have a quick rant about someone I know. He is such a dick, he keeps making promises and then breaking them. It is past time that he grew up and realised how lucky he really is and to start looking after his family before they are gone. And I just wanna slap her for being with you and staying, she could do so much better with a little self belief, which she would have if she wasn't with YOU!

Feeling somewhat better now. Should go finish packing for Collie, spending the weekend there with Shannon's rents.

Heres to fuckwits who will never learn!

Haven't had much time lately to update on here. The kids are all  good, Emilie is now 5 months old, I so can't believe it.

William is just at the best age ever, he is so interactive without being a little smart arse yet :o)

I am ok, got a kidney infection which is really starting to annoy me, just so tired and sore, but the antibiotics should be working soon.

Busy getting ready for the kids Baptism this weekend, why does my family have to be so big? Should be nice though, a little disappointed that Christopher (Shannon's brother) can't be there he is William's Godfather, but he is competing in national paintball over NSW this week.

Better go Emilie is getting grumpy, ready for her sleep.

Haven't been home for the last week so haven't updated for a while.

Perth was good, Dad's cousin is ok she is form Belgium but now lives in America, so sounds American with a french accent, is really weird to listen too.

Went to Lake Grace on Wednesday and came home Friday arvo. Had a fantastic time with Helen and the kids, only saw Chris a couple of times he is really busy with school at the moment. Emilie thought Patrick was a crack-up she would smile and giggle everytime he was talking to her. He was teaching her and William how to do hi5s. Izabel's language skills are improving more and more each time I see her, it amazes me how fast they can change and progress.

Thats about all thats been happening lately, will update more when I can be bothered.

Up to Perth tomorrow and back on Sunday, going to meet my Dad's cousin from America. There is so many of the fuckers I lose count.
Should be an ok weekend, first time I've been up there since Wujo died :o( Hope Ciocia is doing alright I miss him lots.

Having afternoon tea at my Babcias then staying at a hotel/unit thingy with my rents. Sunday morning Shan doing the markets with Dad and Babcia then off to my Uncles place to catch up with all of them.

After visit might try to go harbour town to do some clothes shopping for the kids, gotta love tax cheques! Then heading home to unpack and wash, then gotta repack to head off on Wednesday after swimming lessons. Life is busier with kids then before.

Catch you all when we get home.

We have had a really full on week so far, Emilie loved her swimming lesson yesterday and William was great today. He was scared of the pool, but really loved it after about 5 minutes.

Spending the next 2 days at home just catching up on housework and then packing to go to Perth. Taking off up there Saturday morning and be home Sunday arvo. Then going off to Lake Grace next Wednesday after swimming lessons to stay with Chris and Helen for a couple of nights.

Shannon is getting another arcade machine, I don't know where he is going to put this new one running out of room everywhere and with all the kids stuff on top.

Thinking about going back to work so we can start saving for a house, but its not worth it by the time we pay for daycare and I lose what I get from the government works out to be about the same as now. It sucks.

Scored some free fishies, some red and black platys off of freecycle. Going to set up a smallish tropical tank for William, he is fascinated with Shan's catfish, feeds it every night before bed.

First day at playgroup today, was really nice Will had a good time and Em was as beautiful as ever. We painted an eggcarton-caterpillar, well I did and William painted me :o)

Tomorrow is morning daycare for William and swimming lessons for Emilie, then spending the afternoon ironing to get ready for Perth this weekend and Lake Grace next week.

Had a chat to Carol today, shes good and stuffs but her partner is still a wanker. Grrrr men who treat women like crap! Anyways....

We have got a Baptism information night tomorrow, Shan is trying to send me on my own, but I told him that he has to come with. Haha poor man. Its good though because we have this info night and then go to church one and then we have the actual Baptism, so at least it is only a little bit of churchy stuff for Shannon to go to.

Off to bed soon, need to sleep tonight busy day tomorrow.

This is the first opportunity I have had to sit for 5 minutes, without one of the kids or needing to do 50 million things. Not much has been happening lately, just lots of quality time with the childerbeasts.

William is in the midst of teething agony, he is cutting 6 teeth all at once, he has cut 1 top molar and is slowly starting to return to his normal happy self. Thank God for Nurofen, otherwise we all would have gone insane.

Emilie is turning into a beautiful chubba-bubba, she is really happy and content. Shan and I are really lucky we have gorgeous babies with wonderful sweet temperaments, if only Em would stay this way (I know what I was like at 13 *shudders*).

We have just started taking the kids to the pool to try to get them settled before swimming lessons next week. Will was absolutely petrified to start with, but has now gained confidence and was running around in the baby pool tonight swallowed a heap of water but just kept going. Emilie has loved it from the start she is a little water baby.

Anyways off to Mandurah tomorrow for some children's festival thingy, should be good fun. Lots of sugar and hyped up kids, YaY!

Emilie was up 3 times last night and I couldn't fall asleep, so I am absolutely shattered today. We spent the day at home cleaning and playing.

We are working on William's speech, he is not using very many words, but loves to say daddy and rar! just like all little boys. He has now discovered that he can climb on the lounge and on the futon (which was our dog's last refuge), and loves to jump on the dog and lays on Emilie. Its kinda cute, but Em hates it of course.

Anyway my dinner is ready so better go.